Letter to My Sweet Lil' Boy

Dear My Sweet Little Austin,

Monday is the big day. :( I will return to the workforce and you will venture to a whole different world at daycare. It makes me so sad that my time with you each day will be so limited now. But I have cherished every moment with you over the past 4 1/2 months. I feel so blessed to even had that much time at home with you. I know that daycare will be a bigger adjustment for me than it is for you. When we stopped by to drop off all your things yesterday, you already seemed very interested in the other kids and all the toys you're going to play with. I know that I will be thinking of you constantly all day at work, wondering what you're doing, missing that sweet little smile of yours, and just missing our funny conversations. I can't wait to get home in the evenings and spend every last moment with you before you drift off to sleep in preparation of another day with your new little friends. Just know that I think this is the best decision we could have made for the both of us. I honestly feel that going back to work (whether full-time or part-time) will make me a better mother to you in the long run. But I miss you terribly already and have tears rolling down my face as I type this. I love you more than you will ever know, and I truly believe that God made us wait a while to have a child so that he could bring us the most special baby boy of all. 'All things will happen in God's time.'-I repeated that saying many times over the past couple of years. Your Daddy and I are so lucky to have you in our lives.

I can't wait to hold you in my arms when I get off work everyday. When I pick you up and you give me the biggest smile, it will make my heart melt. I love you Chunky Monkey!

Love you always,
Mommy