Parasite or Baby?!

Over the past two months, I've begun to wonder if I'm pregnant with an actual baby or a parasite. Because whatever it is, it's literally sucking the life right out of me! I know pregnancy is supposed to be one of the most amazing and wonderful times in a woman's life. Well, not so much for me. I just don't think my body is cut out to bear children. If I'm not vomiting, I feel like I could at any moment. I've already had to go to the hospital on three occasions to be treated for dehydration because I just couldn't manage to keep any liquids down for a long period of time. The actual medical term is called hyperemisis gravidarum. Basically it's a severe form of morning sickness that can last an entire pregnancy!!! This comes as no surprise to me, since I experienced this with Austin as well, but I just HOPED this time would be different. My latest trip to the hospital involved me getting 3 bags of IV fluids and some wonderful phenegren in my IV. After running some labs, they considered actually admitting me to the hospital, which would not have been fun at all. Right now, I'm in my 15th week and I've lost 15 lbs. so far. And it's just so hard to function when you feel like crap 24/7. Thankfully, Jordan and the rest of the family have been really great at helping out and picking up the slack in taking care of Austin when momma's not feeling so hot.

I'm hoping things take a turn for the better here in the next couple weeks. But if not, I know it will all be worth it when I hold this sweet miracle in my arms in January. I guess I should try to enjoy this pregnancy a little bit, since it'll be the last time. :(